.:really should be leaving, but i stay:.

The chaos in my mind is seriously at odds with the stagnancy of my outward life.

I cried yesterday because I have no friends. Adam's answer to this, and it's true when it comes down to it, is that I don't belong here. I really don't. And neither does he. I'm just not entirely convinced that we both belong in the same place.

I could fly to the city right now. really, I could. I could buy a ticket and be there. I would have nowhere to go. But I would be there. Yet I won't.

Sometimes I think the ultimate irony is that I know it's all pointless and yet I still won't kill myself.

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[07/13/2003@11:36 AM] [at odds] recently... test - 02/21/2018 change - 07/18/2004 good day - 04/26/2004 help - 04/15/2004 eh - 03/30/2004	The chaos in my mind is seriously at odds with the stagnancy of my outward life. I cried yesterday because I have no friends. Adam's answer to this, and it's true when it comes down to it, is that I don't belong here. I really don't. And neither does he. I'm just not entirely convinced that we both belong in the same place. I could fly to the city right now. really, I could. I could buy a ticket and be there. I would have nowhere to go. But I would be there. Yet I won't. Sometimes I think the ultimate irony is that I know it's all pointless and yet I still won't kill myself. :\|cause\|:\|effect\|:	I read... actiongrl badlock badsnake blab blondeness chubbychic jwinokur littlecough livingwreck over-now perceptions prostituee prowlingleo spanklin tigerknight virgin wishiwasout say somethin', will ya? message dee-signs � 2002
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