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He's back. Of course. There is so much, so much that I could say, but nothing is inspiring me.
I cried when we made love the first time after he returned. It wasn't out of sadness, or even happiness really, I guess. It was just the only way such intense emotion could be expressed. Last night I spent an hour sitting in a hot tub and being pep talked by Mark about NYC. It seems like the more sure of the whole thing that he becomes, the more iffy I get. I sort of want to get a place here, with Adam for a while. But January is so, so close. I don't know what I want. I have no clear goals. I guess that's always been my problem. One thing I want, for sure, is to have a picnic. That's about as far as it goes right now. |
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