.:really should be leaving, but i stay:.

This is still too fresh to really write about, but I want this here at least as a reminder of what tonight almost was. Of what I almost lost. Of what I spent 3 hours trying desperatly to save. Of the most terrifying and emotionally draining hours of my entire life. Of crying so hard I can barely talk or see or breathe or stand, yet still somehow finding the strength to restore faith in something someone else had given up on, almost on a whim. Most of all this is a reminder that it can't happen again, and that I have to make a concious, concerted and personal effort to remember to never, ever take anything for granted.

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[12/16/2002@3:03 AM] [REMINDER TO ME] recently... test - 02/21/2018 change - 07/18/2004 good day - 04/26/2004 help - 04/15/2004 eh - 03/30/2004	This is still too fresh to really write about, but I want this here at least as a reminder of what tonight almost was. Of what I almost lost. Of what I spent 3 hours trying desperatly to save. Of the most terrifying and emotionally draining hours of my entire life. Of crying so hard I can barely talk or see or breathe or stand, yet still somehow finding the strength to restore faith in something someone else had given up on, almost on a whim. Most of all this is a reminder that it can't happen again, and that I have to make a concious, concerted and personal effort to remember to never, ever take anything for granted. :\|cause\|:\|effect\|:	I read... actiongrl badlock badsnake blab blondeness chubbychic jwinokur littlecough livingwreck over-now perceptions prostituee prowlingleo spanklin tigerknight virgin wishiwasout say somethin', will ya? message dee-signs � 2002
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