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daringc69: hello Me: hello daringc69: what r u lookin for? Me: what do you mean? daringc69: are you bi? Me: no daringc69: ever thought of being with a female or couple? Me: thought about it, sure. don't want to though daringc69: why not? Me: doesnt appeal to me daringc69: you might like it, if you try it Me: i think i can decide for myself what i like and what i don't daringc69: thats cool if you don't want to experience life,,,,i guess it would be yur loss Me: you have no idea what i have experienced in life, and what i havent. just because I don't want to do what you think I ought to want to do doesnt mean that i losing out on something daringc69: you are missing out...if you are not willing to try things...not trying to upset you...just being honest Me: what you are being is not called honesty. its called judgmental daringc69: you are wrong...i am stating facts...if you don't try things in life then you will miss out Me: i am not going to miss out on my life simply because there is one thing that I don't want to try daringc69: sure Me: what the hell is that supposed to mean? daringc69: nothing...forget it...sorry to bother you Me: a word of advice... you will do a lot better to find what YOU are looking for in life if you open your mind a little. it is you who misses out when you judge people the way you do daringc69: look...i don't know who and the hell you think you are trying to preach to but i don't need to hear that from you. i am in no way judgmental and i am sorry if you can't handle the facts. and for you to get so defensive then i would have to think that you know that i am right Me: I don't think I am the defensive one here daringc69: your right Me: of course i am daringc69: sure...kid Me: I am 21, according to your profile you are 25. unfortunately I've got quite a bit of knowledge on you. maybe some day you will see that daringc69: you are so full of shit Me: Oh, such brilliant words. you are so wise daringc69: you are not open minded at all and you will lose out Me: i am going to click the little ignore button now, goodbye *************** I am so fucking bored. I really don't feel like writing this entry but, I mean, what the fuck am I going to do if I don't? Went to Mark's dance performance last night. Terrible. Not him, the whole thing. There was no way he could have saved it. Boring. We were supposed to go to Fantasy/Fetish night at the club we sometimes go to. Long story, but we didn't end up going. We were both dressed for it. I was wearing the classic Catholic school girl uniform. I was supposed to go over to Adam's house afterward, but ended up going much earlier instead. Which wasn't really too bad, except that I felt like the only reason we didnt go to FF night was that J*** didn't go. As in, just going with me wasn't good enough. I'm really oversimplifying this. Mark said that wasn't the case, but whatever. As his possible departure looms closure, I feel like I should be spending as much time as possible with him. So why was it that when he called me today to see if I wanted to go to a gymnastics meet, it was really just too much for me to get out of bed? I don't think I've EVER done that before. Well, I was really tired from last night. Showing up in a school girl outfit does wonders for Adam's broken rib, apparently. I'd like to do an entry about that actually, but I'm not in the mood right now. A couple of things... One, I'd like to spend some time with just Mark and I. I do really like J***, but I don't want him to be there every single time we hang out. I can't say that I feel like the third wheel every time we hang out, but sometimes. Also, I have actually made no effort to actually spend some one on one time with him. I guess I feel like that will be giving the beast a name. Sigh. Also, Michelle is doing her acting weird thing again. Everytime I call her it seems like I am annoying her. She's really really busy I know. But of course she seems to find time for you know who. I don't know if it's a fucking complex or what, I just always feel like I'm just not as important to people. Adam brought me home earlier. I would have much preffered to stay there, but the offer was not extended. He said that his friend R*** was coming by to discuss a business thing they've been trying to work out. I just don't want to be here. And I have tooo many things running through my head right now.
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