.:really should be leaving, but i stay:.

It seems that my bathing suit is lost. Luckily they are pretty stretchy little bastards so I am able to get into one from a couple years ago. Emphasis on the SO there because if they WEREN'T then I WOULDN'T. I thought I left it at Adam's house, and I still suspect that I did because I can' find it ANYwhere here. The problem with it is that it's been missing for almost a year really, because I haven't worn it since last summer. In the process of looking for it I found one of my favorite necklaces that I didn't realize I had lost, and a book I bought at Barnes and Noble back when I work at the restaurant, still in the bag with the receipt. I had totally forgotten I ever bought it.

I went "swimming" yesterday with Adam, which basically consisted of both of us harassing the other to get into the pool because it was so damn cold. I finally got in first and splashed and splashed him til he gave in. We didn't last too long. I should really probably wear a one piece... That's the point of this entry really... I have to lose some weight. 5'7" 143 lbs. Not huge. Not fat. Maybe bordering on chubby, but doesnt show in my face or arms.

I don't want to lose massive amounts of weight. 130 would be good I think. 120 would be better. I just have no idea how to go about it. I mean, there's always the basic, eat less, exercise more thing. But everything you hear is so CONFLICTING. Eat this, don't eat this, blah blah blah.

I was skinny all my damn life. I guess a year of not doing much but sitting at home will do that to you... I actually think I had a nice body when I was about 18 or so... Of course I didn't appreciate it then because I was so hung up on my breasts. I had curves even when I was thin... Hips, thighs. But they looked nice I think. Now Im sort of... jiggly. I dont wear shorts anymore bcause my thighs are just too damn big, it isn't comfortable. And I've got a tummy pooch... Sigh.

I can't believe Im obsessing over this. How teenage girl am I? I'm gonna shut up now.

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Like, so, like, I wanna lose some weight.. like
[05/30/2003@12:16 AM] [Like, so, like, I wanna lose some weight.. like] recently... test - 02/21/2018 change - 07/18/2004 good day - 04/26/2004 help - 04/15/2004 eh - 03/30/2004	It seems that my bathing suit is lost. Luckily they are pretty stretchy little bastards so I am able to get into one from a couple years ago. Emphasis on the SO there because if they WEREN'T then I WOULDN'T. I thought I left it at Adam's house, and I still suspect that I did because I can' find it ANYwhere here. The problem with it is that it's been missing for almost a year really, because I haven't worn it since last summer. In the process of looking for it I found one of my favorite necklaces that I didn't realize I had lost, and a book I bought at Barnes and Noble back when I work at the restaurant, still in the bag with the receipt. I had totally forgotten I ever bought it. I went "swimming" yesterday with Adam, which basically consisted of both of us harassing the other to get into the pool because it was so damn cold. I finally got in first and splashed and splashed him til he gave in. We didn't last too long. I should really probably wear a one piece... That's the point of this entry really... I have to lose some weight. 5'7" 143 lbs. Not huge. Not fat. Maybe bordering on chubby, but doesnt show in my face or arms. I don't want to lose massive amounts of weight. 130 would be good I think. 120 would be better. I just have no idea how to go about it. I mean, there's always the basic, eat less, exercise more thing. But everything you hear is so CONFLICTING. Eat this, don't eat this, blah blah blah. I was skinny all my damn life. I guess a year of not doing much but sitting at home will do that to you... I actually think I had a nice body when I was about 18 or so... Of course I didn't appreciate it then because I was so hung up on my breasts. I had curves even when I was thin... Hips, thighs. But they looked nice I think. Now Im sort of... jiggly. I dont wear shorts anymore bcause my thighs are just too damn big, it isn't comfortable. And I've got a tummy pooch... Sigh. I can't believe Im obsessing over this. How teenage girl am I? I'm gonna shut up now. :\|cause\|:\|effect\|:	I read... actiongrl badlock badsnake blab blondeness chubbychic jwinokur littlecough livingwreck over-now perceptions prostituee prowlingleo spanklin tigerknight virgin wishiwasout say somethin', will ya? message dee-signs � 2002
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