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The last few days, as told through instant messages. The one person who is involved in one of these conversations, and is around on diaryland... you know who you are and if you want it taken down (though I doubt it) just let me know.

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T: so, what'd ya do this past weekend ?

ME: went to dallas with Mark, danced 2 step in a gay country and western bar, looked at sex toys at condom sense, went to adams, had sex, went home, sat around, Mark came over, watched SNL and Mr. Bean, went to sleep, woke up, went to the lake, back to Marks, took a shower with a bird, went to Drew's house, watched monsters inc.

T: took a shower with a bird ?

ME: hahaha

T: and I really didn't need the sex reference either, haha

ME: Marks bird flies into the bathroom and sits on top of the shower sprayer and takes a shower

ME: why not? it was good sex :-P

T: awww, that's cute

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Mark: no i am talking to J***

ME: ooh

Mark: everything is still weird

ME: ok well ill just say goodnight. if you want to talk afterward and im not here you can call me

Mark: no we are already off the phone

ME: oh

ME: well...nevermind then

ME: nothing changed?

Mark: no he seems sad but i dont give a fuck, i want to scream at him because he is so stubborn

ME: he seems SAD now? not acting like everything is hunky dory anymore?

Mark: no hes like, good night what are you doing tomorrow blah blah

ME: sounds pretty normal to me. i mean, like what he would say if he was trying to act normal, not like what he would say if he was sad. but typing doesnt really give the tone

ME: you ok?

ME: hello?

Mark: yeah

ME: you ok?

Mark: yeah he is text messaging me telling me i have no reason to be pissed and when i work it out give him a call

Mark: i told him to fuck off

ME: woah.....

ME: no reason to be pissed?

ME: when YOU work it out??

Mark: yeah, he just said fine

ME: oooh kkkkk

Mark: yep

Mark: he must not even know why i am mad

ME: guess not, or thinks that playing dumb will get him out of it

Mark: i dont know

ME: funny that he didnt have the guts to say that to you on the phone

Mark: funny

ME: well maybe not FUNNY... but... something

ME: so are yall still texting nasty messages to each other?

Mark: yeah, I don't understand

ME: what is he saying?

Mark: just being defensive

ME: still through text?? why dont you guys just talk on the phone. it'll go a lot faster

Mark: i told him if he wants to talk to call me

ME: hmmm

ME: everything ok?

Mark: so far

Mark: i guess he went to sleep

ME: oh, he never called?

Mark: nope

ME: i guess you have to call him... when you work it out

Mark: yeah, i mean what ever he says right

ME: adam must have fallen asleep too... i havent heard from him. i guess im going to bed, its 4 fucking AM

ME: what are YOU doing still up?

Mark: i guess i can not sleep

Mark: good night love you thanx

ME: i love you too... if you want/need to talk...goodnight

Mark: goodnight

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ME: you there?

CG: yes

ME: did you go out?

CG: stop it. no

ME: why do you want me to stop it

ME: hey!

CG: i'm asleep

ME: CG... ok, ill be nice. but you have to talk to me!

ME: why are you ignoring me?

CG: i am not

ME: you are being so strange! and its hard to read on here, you could be being melodramatic, you could just be busy, or interested in tv... you just seem so sad

CG: nothing wrong

ME: there must be something

ME: i mean, i KNOW there's something

CG: tired

ME: :-(

ME: if you dont want to talk about things i understand, i just dont know what else i can do and its frustrating

CG: it's nice to be able to chat. that's as much as you can do.i genuinely appreciate your concern. and your friendship.

ME: ok, now is when i start sending you porn in a feeble effort to cheer you up

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ME: its hard to get a real feel for someone elses relationship because you really only hear the bad things

PL: yup...but hopefully they will break up and I get to hear what she actually gave him in the relationship

ME: like with Mark and his boyfriend, ugh, they were fighting all damn weekend

ME: and its all so stupid and i have to hear about it

PL: lol

PL: that bad?

ME: and Mark keeps asking my opinions, and what i would do

ME: finally i was like, you know? i wouldnt even BE with him anymore

PL: exactly

PL: lol

PL: my friend xxx and xxxxx had issues tonight, and I was so the go between all day, I was exhausted...I'm like 'do what you want, you're gonna anyway...end it'

ME: but yet he is... i called him earlier and hes doing the Mark and xxxxx code talk for "ill tell you about it later" which means they are together

PL: nope...they are together. LOL

PL: I love code

ME: brb

PL: k

ME: ok, sorry... anyway, im just thinking, theres got to be more to J*** that i dont see, because i dont see how Mark could even be with him anymore if its really as bad as he makes it out sometimes

PL: sounds like it...there's always something

ME: i just worry about him because im afraid hes going to get "stuck" with J*** when they move to NY

PL: that wouldn't be good

PL: all you can really do though is advise...up to him if he takes it

ME: and get this... today adam says "i think you should go to NY with Mark... you know ill go with you."

PL: really??

ME: not that its as simple as all that... but this is coming from the guy who said hed NEVER want to live there

PL: lol come on over, we can have fun ;)

ME: lol

PL: guess he just wants to be near you ;)

ME: where exactly are you again? and yeah, he does, but more than that, he actually WANTS me to do it... possibly go up there after they get settled, stay with them for a while, see how jobs look, etc

ME: then he could come up later

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