.:really should be leaving, but i stay:.

The distance between here and new york city has never been more evident to me. The harshness of dreams has never been quite as stinging.

The early hours of the morning have never seemed quite so dull. The afterglow of an orgasm has never been quite as...unfulfilling.

And I've never been as uninspired or self loathing.

I don't even sit waiting for the phone to ring anymore.

And I'm already back to staying up til I don't even want to know when, and waking up in the late afternoon. Sleeping the day away in order to live in the darkness that is inside me. So that the inside and outside may be balanced.

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[07/30/2003@2:50 AM] [balance] recently... test - 02/21/2018 change - 07/18/2004 good day - 04/26/2004 help - 04/15/2004 eh - 03/30/2004	The distance between here and new york city has never been more evident to me. The harshness of dreams has never been quite as stinging. The early hours of the morning have never seemed quite so dull. The afterglow of an orgasm has never been quite as...unfulfilling. And I've never been as uninspired or self loathing. I don't even sit waiting for the phone to ring anymore. And I'm already back to staying up til I don't even want to know when, and waking up in the late afternoon. Sleeping the day away in order to live in the darkness that is inside me. So that the inside and outside may be balanced. :\|cause\|:\|effect\|:	I read... actiongrl badlock badsnake blab blondeness chubbychic jwinokur littlecough livingwreck over-now perceptions prostituee prowlingleo spanklin tigerknight virgin wishiwasout say somethin', will ya? message dee-signs � 2002
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