.:really should be leaving, but i stay:.

I'm still here, searching for that perspective that I feel will make life more bearable. I'm still hoping every day that my efforts are worth something, and that someday, they will pay off.

But I'm still terrified of the future. And I still feel like screaming "That's not fair!"

There's this girl I work with, 18 years old, been dating some guy for about 4 months. And they got an apartment together.

I've been with Adam for 3 years.

I try to tell myself that they won't be together in another 6 months. But it really doesn't make me feel any better.

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not fair
[01/17/2004@3:58 AM] [not fair] recently... test - 02/21/2018 change - 07/18/2004 good day - 04/26/2004 help - 04/15/2004 eh - 03/30/2004	I'm still here, searching for that perspective that I feel will make life more bearable. I'm still hoping every day that my efforts are worth something, and that someday, they will pay off. But I'm still terrified of the future. And I still feel like screaming "That's not fair!" There's this girl I work with, 18 years old, been dating some guy for about 4 months. And they got an apartment together. I've been with Adam for 3 years. I try to tell myself that they won't be together in another 6 months. But it really doesn't make me feel any better. :\|cause\|:\|effect\|:	I read... actiongrl badlock badsnake blab blondeness chubbychic jwinokur littlecough livingwreck over-now perceptions prostituee prowlingleo spanklin tigerknight virgin wishiwasout say somethin', will ya? message dee-signs � 2002
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